Angelitos

I have been so humbled to receive this special story from a mother of six precious angel children.  This mother has been lovingly sewing gowns, blankets, and diapers BY HAND, without a sewing machine, for the angel families in her community.  Not all angels are in Heaven.  One lives in Donna, Texas.

"Hi, my name is Laura M.Villanueva, mother of six beautiful angels. I am sorry that I am just barely communicating with you. I have thought and wondered if I should share my beautiful and yet, sad story with you. I am 30 years old and have suffered the hardest pain a woman can go through - that of losing a child and I have lost six. Let me tell you a little bit about me.

My first pregnancy was three years ago.  God gave me the blessing to carry in my womb twins, a girl and a boy. My pregnancy was a bit tricky but my husband and I had a lot of faith and knew that everything would be fine. At 25 weeks, we went in for a checkup and my doctor told us that my little ones hearbeats could not be heard. Those were the most painful words I ever heard.  My life fell apart, I am a Mexican immigrant, and my belief is that if the baby is stillborn, he/she never existed.  The only family I have is my sister and my husband. They have been my support  in this painful journey.  I of course I can not talk to my mom about the loss of my children.

Seven months later, I became pregnant again only this time with triplets. I did not understand what was happening! For some reason thought it was a gift of life from God.  My children were born at 18 weeks. I was in a car accident; when I awoke 3 three days I got the news, I do not understand why again it happened.  I go through the mourning, the pain and the unanswered questions, as to why I'm alive, I don’t know.  It is difficult to want to live but also be dead inside. With help from my family and via psychological help I moved forward and in May this year I became pregnant again; at eight weeks I had a miscarriage, I am again in mourning and am a mother with empty arms! It is so hard to explain to people that I don’t have children here next to me but that I carry them in my heart.

What you do is wonderful, I do not sew but the diapers, dresses, blankets to put in memory boxes donated I sew by hand. You cannot imagine how much the little that I do has helped me.  I only work with two hospitals and a funeral home.  Tomorrow, I am having a garage sale to raise money to buy the things I need for the boxes. I have a just one job now but hopefully soon I will have one more, because the money from my second job will go towards supplies to make memoirs.  I have received no donations but you know, I do not care!  The little I do, I do with much love to give some comfort those parents who have gone through what I have gone through.  I sent you photos of the third installment I gave one of the hospitals and hopefully you like them. What I do is not a lot. I have two appointments in two new hospitals near where I live. I have already made ​​20 diapers should they say they accept my little boxes.

Gracias for listening and may God and the Virgin bless you for all the beautiful things you do."

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"Hola,soy LauraM.Villanueva mama d seis hermosos angelitos,te pido una disculpas porque apenas me estoy comunicando con tigo,he pensando mucho si debo de platicarte mi hermosa pero ala vez triste historia,yo tengo 30 años y e pasado por el dolor mas doloroso que una mujer puede pasar el perder a un hijo pero yo he perdido seis,deja y te cuento un poco d mi.Mi primer embarazo fue hace tres años dios me dio la bendición de llevar en mi vientre a twins,una niña y un niño,mi embarazo fue un poco delicado pero mi esposo y yo teníamos muchas fe y sabiamos que todo saldría bien,alos 25 semanas en un chequeo mi doctora nos dijo que el corazoncito de mis chiquitos no se escuchaba,fueron las palabras mas dolorosas que escuhe mi vida se vino abajo,yo soy mexicana imigrante,y mis creencias son que si el bebe nace muerto es como si no hubiera existido,aquí la unica familia que tengo es a mi hermana y mi esposo ellos han sido mi apoyo en este doloroso camino,yo porsupuesto no puedo hablar con mi mama hacerca de mis hijos.Alos siete meses bolvi a quedar embarazada solo que esta vez eran triplets no entendía lo que estaba pasando por alguna razón pense que era un regalo de la vida y de dios,alas 18semanas mis hijos nacieron  muertos por concecuencia de un axidente en mi carro,cuando desperte alas tres dias me dieron la noticia,no entiendo porque otra vez ami,nuevamente pasas por el luto,el dolor y las preguntas sin respuesta,como es que estoy viva,no lose,que difícil es querer vivir pero al mismo tiempo estar muerta por dentro.Con mucho apoyo y ayuda sicológica te puedo desir que sali adelante,en mayo de este año quede nuevamente embarazada,alas 8 semanas tuve un aborto natural,estoy nuevamente en luto y en el camino de ser una mama con los brazos vacíos es tan difícil aprender a vivir sin ellos,no hay dia de mi vida que no piense en cada uno de ellos,es tan difícil de explicarle alas personas que no tengo hijos aqui alado de mi sino que yo los llevo en mi corazón.Lo que tu haces es maravilloso,yo nose cocer a maquina pero los pañales,vestidos,las cobijitas que pongo en las cajitas de memoria que dono las coso a mano,no te imaginas lo que me ha ayudado lo poco que ago,solo son dos hospitales y una funeraria,mañana boy a poner una venta de garage para recaudar dinero y poder comprar las cosas que necesito para las cajitas,ahora solo tengo un trabajo pero espero pronto conseguir uno mas,ya que lo que yo he hecho es que el dinero de mi segundo trabajo lo ocupo para comprar todas las cosas, nadien me da donaciónes pero sabes no me importa lo poco que hago lo hago con mucho amor y cariño para darle un poco de consuelo aquellos papas que han pasado lo mismo que yo.Te envie fotos de la tercera entrega que di en uno de los hospitales ojala y te gusten es muy poco lo que hago,tengo dos citas en dos nuevos de los hospitales serca de,donde vivo,ya tengo 20 pañales hechos por si me dicen que si aceptan mis cajitas.Gracias por escucharme.Que dios y la virgen te bendigan por todo lo hermoso que haces."




Thank you, Veronica Santos, for your translation assistance!

3 comments:

April said...

Continue what you are doing Laura, your strength is inspiring. I'm so sorry for your loses - I am happy that sewing brings you peace. I pray for your miracle one day soon ♥

Heather B said...

What an incredible story and an incredible woman. I, too, pray for your miracle.

Anonymous said...

i think what you do is a wonderful thing ,me and my husband also make hat's and bereavement garments and donate them to the hospitals