I experienced my first lost at 17 1/2 weeks; he was a sweet baby boy. Six months later I was surprised to see that I was expecting again. I thought for sure God was going to give me a miracle. He did, but not in the way I expected it to be. I again faced the loss of another baby. More cautious and leery about pregnancy, we chose to wait longer for our hearts to heal. When I finally almost felt whole again, I found I was expecting. Again my sweet baby returned to heaven. If you are counting this is 3 in just under a two year span.
So, being extremely careful and with the watchful eye of doctors and specialist, I tried again. I was excited about this baby. I knew that it would be ok. It had to be... right? Well, I went on a rollercoaster of a pregnancy. At five weeks into the pregnancy I had an ovarian cyst rupture. Which caused me to bleed internally. Usually this would go away and all would be fine. It was not fine for me. I continued to bleed every day until I went into preterm labor at 24 weeks 2 days. Something caused me to go into labor. Being from a small town in Idaho they didn't have the resources to keep my tiny baby girl alive. And knowing the extremely difficult journey my baby would have to go through to stay alive, we choose to hold her and love her. She lived for two hours. And in those two hours I was able to experience heaven, and be able to hold an angel.
Back to the reason why your blog was a heaven sent. The hospital where I delivered didn't have a diaper for my little Gracie. They did the best they could, with what they had. They used a 4x4 gauze pad that we taped around her. Like I said, they tried, and I am truly grateful for that. But in the back of my mind I felt like I had to do something, and I had to give something back. When I found the diapers, I knew that this was the thing for me to do. So I rounded up my family and we made diapers, and dresses, and bracelets, and blankets. Through the loss of four babies, I felt like I really needed to reach out and help other women. I wanted to make their experience just a little more bearable. I wanted to give them one more thing that they could hold on to. One more thing that made them feel like their baby wasn't forgotten. So thank you for helping me be able to provide that.
I want to donate these diapers in behalf of my little girl, Grace Faith Daseler. We have made 100 diapers to donate in her memory. Thank you for doing what you do! It means more than you'll ever know." ~Melissa, Grace's mommy
Angel princess Grace with her little "diaper" made out of 4x4 gauze pad and medical tape.
Bereavement gowns and outfits...
These beautiful remembrance items have been donated in memory of Grace Faith Daseler to Logan Regional Hospital in Logan, Utah and Franklin County Medical Center in Preston, Idaho.