For Love of Lillian

Angel mama Caren donated 100 diapers in memory of her daughter Lillian Grace, who would have been 4 this year.  These diapers have been donated for families served by Sisters of Charity Hospital in Buffalo, New York.

Diapers in Indiana!

The wonderful Young Women from the Newburgh Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Newburgh, Indiana made diapers for a service project activity.

Their precious bereavement diapers were donated for angel families served by Porter Regional Hospital in Valparaiso, Indiana. Thank you, young ladies!

For Love of Josiah Part #6

Angel mama Renee has been donating bereavement clothing in memory of her son Josiah Darin Lane through the organization she founded in his name, Josiah's Song.
She has donated diapers to Bronson Hospital in Kalamazoo, Michigan, in memory of Josiah.
To read more about Josiah's story and their first donations, please click here.

For Love of Breleigh

Our project has been heavily supported by families affected by Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome.  Recently two families who lost one of their twins to TTTS made a donation to a hospital in memory of a third little angel who lost her battle with TTTS.

"Our sweet Angel Breleigh Hope Amiotte was born on May 24th 2012 at 3:54 pm, two minutes after her sister. She weighed 1 pound, .9 ounce (not even a full ounce over a pound). She joined the Angels at 12:15 am on May 26th 2012. This is her story.

As parents of a two and a half year old, we decided that we wanted to add another child to our family. Soon after we got the good news that we were pregnant. At the 16 week visit with my doctor, we heard our Angel’s heart beat for the first time. It was amazing, especially since we had no idea that her sister was there too. I was concerned as I had gained weight more quickly than I had expected and I felt as though my stomach was growing very fast. Due to my slight weight gain (only a couple pounds over what was expected) we were able to get an early ultrasound. At this ultrasound we were told that we were having twins followed by the fact that they had Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome (TTTS). Due to the TTTS they had a ten percent chance of surviving without medical intervention.

At 18 weeks we were told that we needed to fly to Cincinnati to be evaluated as to the current stage of the TTTS. We were put at a stage 4c and had surgery the following day. After the surgery things were looking better. Both babies’ hearts had improved and so had the fluid levels. At our 24 week ultrasound we were told that the part of the placenta that Breleigh had was failing and the pressure in her umbilical cord was increasing, which would result in the blood flow going absent and than reversing. When this happened she would die. We were told that if we delivered both babies now neither would have a very good chance of making it, so we decided to let Breleigh go in uterine and hope to save her sister (as long as all of the connections between the girls were severed with the surgery). This was the most difficult decision to make as the idea of letting one baby die in order to save the other one was heart breaking! I could not feel Breleigh unless I was on my left side as she was so small, so every night I would lye in bed and ask her to please kick me so that I would know that she was still ok. With every ultrasound I prayed for a heart beat and dreaded the day that there would not be one.

At 27 weeks gestation, after many agonizing days, we were told that we had reached a point in which they could deliver both of the girls when Breleigh’s blood flow reversed as they both had a chance of making it now. The next day there was absent end flow followed by reversed flow the following day. We were admitted and the girls were delivered the following day.

They did amazing. Both girls were called “rock stars” as they were doing so well. The following day they were both breathing on their own with the help of a c-pap machine and had even started feedings. I got to change their diapers and for the first time in a long time I thought everything was going to be ok. My girls were both going to make it! Little did I know that about 29 hours after their birth Breleigh would decline quickly. They re-intibated her and tried to get her to oxygenate again but nothing would work. I was so scared I could only hold her hand for a short time as I did not want to get in the way. I watched from a distance as they tried to save my baby for a couple of hours, but nothing would work. It is the most helpless feeling any parent can ever experience… At approximately 12:15 am I held my baby for the first and the last time as she passed away in my arms. She had fought so hard to make it, it is still hard to believe that after all that we still lost her. After we lost Breleigh her sister began following in her footsteps, so much so that the doctors had told us to prepare to lose them both. It makes me wonder even more about the bond between twins and I pray that Breleigh watches over her sister still today!

I am so grateful to Breleigh for her fight! I believe my blessing was that I did not have to lose her in uterine and that I know that we did everything possible to save her. I had one day of no worries, where I just got to enjoy being a mother of twins... She gave me that gift and I will be eternally grateful to her! I just pray she knows how much we love her and that she will always be in our hearts!

Love Always,

Mom (Robyn), Dad(Adrian), Eli, and Aira"

These 280 diapers were donated to Sanford Hospital in Sioux Falls South Dakota in memory of Breleigh, with love from the families of fellow TTTS angels Carter Garen Kimmel and Spencer Dee Johnson.

For Love of Wren

"I received a Teeny Tears diaper when my daughter Wren was born at 19 weeks on December 18, 2012.

It meant so much to see Wren lovingly dressed in a diaper, blanket and hat and to later receive my own set as well. It felt like our loss was acknowledged and honoured. With so little time with Wren to make memories and gather mementos I knew that little diaper would become a treasure.

Later, at meetings at the hospital with bereavement nurse, I would think about other women and families losing their own babies there and I wished I could do something for them.

My sister and mother have taken on the project with me of sewing diapers and blankets in Wren’s memory. I have found both the act of sewing and the effort to bring others some measure of comfort to be very therapeutic."  ~Allison, angel mother to Wren

These diapers and blankets have been donated to Lois Hole Women's Hospital in Edmonton, Alberta, Canada in memory of Wren Margaret Nitchke.

For Love of Aaron

"On February 25th of 1979 our second son, Aaron William, was born 5 weeks early. He seemed strong and healthy even though he was small (4 lbs). He kicked and cried to make his presence known. Because of his premature birth his lungs were not fully developed. His heart also had problems due to his early arrival. He was given oxygen and monitored carefully. There was a thick heavy fog in Vernal, Utah all that day and into the night.

In the earlier months of my pregnancy I'd had feelings that Aaron would not be with us long, even though there was no medical indication that there was anything wrong. I'd started a journal for our first son, Thomas, while I was pregnant with him, writing little notes to him such as, “Today I felt you kick for the first time.” I kept that journal for Tom all through my pregnancy with him and after his birth, reporting on his progress as he rolled over for the first time, learned to sit by himself and took his first step. I wrote down the cute things he said as a toddler and when he was old enough to hold a pen I helped him write down his experiences in his own words. I intended to do the same thing with all my children. When I became pregnant with Aaron, however, I had a very different feeling. I kept seeing in my mind a journal with only one entry, with the rest of the pages blank. There were other things that happened, other indications that Aaron would take a different journey than my other children, but each experience was also accompanied by a peaceful feeling.

Eighteen hours after Aaron was born the doctor informed us that our baby boy was struggling and it didn't appear that he was going to last much longer. The fog made it impossible for emergency transportation to take him to Primary Children's Hospital in Salt Lake City. For some reason, instead of the worry and disappointment I might have felt in such a situation, I felt relief. I wanted Aaron to stay close by because I was sure if they whisked him away on a helicopter I would not be with him when he made his final journey from this life. As it was, I was able to be with him in his last moments. A comforting feeling enveloped me and I knew things were as they should have been. Heavenly Father took him home the day after he was born, on February 26th.

Aaron is my sweet angel in Heaven, watching over me and my family. He is filling up the pages of his journal in a different world, a better world, one which I look forward to sharing with him someday. In the meantime, these many years later, I have found a way to serve others who have lost their little angels so early in their lives. Teeny Tears and other organizations like it were unheard of 30 years ago, and it is wonderful to see that despite some of the negative things that are happening in this world, there are also wonderful, positive things happening to comfort mothers who have had to say goodbye too soon to their own little angels."  With Love, Aaron's mom, Judy."

Judy today
The Activity Days Girls from the Davis 2nd Ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Vernal, Utah helped to make diapers in memory of Aaron for a service project.  They cut, trimmed, and flipped in memory of Aaron, creating diapers for families in Sidney, Nebraska with the rest donated though headquarters for distribution.

MJ's Memories Part #2

Thanks to the wonderful relationships we have been able to build across the bereavement community and the cooperative spirit of our volunteers, we are often able to connect our volunteers with bereavement support organizations within their own communities.

Such was the case with volunteer seamstress and gifted crocheter Diana.  She had been donating her beautiful layettes locally for years.  Diana was interested in adding Teeny Tears diapers to her donations and providing her precious gifts to several more hospitals in her local area.  We were able to match her to MJ's Memories, a division of Project Sweet Peas serving families in Kansas City and Topeka, Kansas.

"MJ is gone, but he will never be forgotten. Thirty five days was not nearly enough, but he will remain in our hearts forever." ~Megan, MJ's mommy


Diana recently donated 24 sets of Teeny Tears diapers to MJ's memories along with crocheted hats, dresses, and other beautiful items for the families served by MJ's memories.
We love our volunteers!  And we love the great support organizations that are serving families on the front lines of their communities!  It's a blessing and a privilege to be able to mingle with such wonderful people in this work.

For Love of Joshua Part #9

"The 8 sets of diapers sent to the Red Center in memory of Joshua Greer are pretty special. First, because they are each made with a lot of love. Second, because they are the first I made all by myself with no help! They were the first thing I have ever sewn. Third, because they were sewn on my grandmother's machine that was purchased in 1956. She would have been Joshua's great grandmother, she passed away in 2009. 

A lot of things had been made with a lot of love with this machine including things for all of my aunts and uncles cousins, sisters, my mother and my living children. By making diapers with her Machine, it's now made things for Joshua. I know she would be proud of me using her Machine for this blessing."  ~Crystal, Angel mother to Joshua.  

To read more about Joshua, click here.

For Love of Aaron and the Slaugh Babies

"When we made our first delivery of care packages to a hospital, there was a mom there at that moment, who had lost a baby at 14 weeks and had to have a D&C. We took out a few of the items from the stillbirth memory bags, and had the Labor and Delivery nurses take it to her. I figured that all hospitals work like that, with people checking in L&D for care packages, but a few weeks later at a diaper party, my friend Angela asked why her friend who had just had a miscarriage didn't get anything? We realized that we'd need to make specific miscarriage packets, and take them to the Emergency Room and Same Day Surgery areas of the hospitals.

I think that there is a huge need for support packets to give those who are unable to hold their babies, and don't even have that precious time with their angels to remember. I wanted to put things inside ours that might not be included in other miscarriage packets, and I'm glad that we included a bear for empty arms, handkerchief for tears- with a lovely homemade card, a journal for the not always pretty thoughts, and an informational article and resource list for them. The article/ resource list were posted by a mom who had lost a baby herself, and is now working with the Atlanta Birth Center to help others who have suffered a miscarriage, I also included a few local people/groups with that.
These diapers and packets are donated in memory of the Angela Slaugh's babies, who though never held, are loved and missed. The donation card is shared with another baby from our church group, who will be honored in a later "Small Town Sewers" Post :)
Along with this delivery, we also added to the memory boxes that we had delivered to these hospitals in November. With many people's generous donations- of talents and money, we were able to give actual boxes for the memory boxes (instead of the bags we used before), and include some new items. Now the parents can have something more durable to have their keepsakes in. We also changed around the way they work, because I read that a parent loved being able to "shop" for the Teeny Tears Diapers. Instead of the memory boxes being very gender/age specific, we now put the miscellaneous items in the box (bear, ornament, journal etc), then we put all of the same age-range clothing items in one place, so the parents can choose their favorites, before adding them to the box. Hopefully this will make it more manageable. (picture of box)
We hope that with these new items and packets, the angel parents in our small towns will be even better served than before!"

Carrie Austin
Small Angel Babies, Small Town Support

Diapers from Temecula!

Activity Days girls from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Temecula, California donated diapers for families at Loma Linda Children's Hospital.

"The Activity Days Girls ages 8-11 came to my home and they worked hard on cutting and ironing all the tiny diapers, while I did the machine sewing. After the girls finished their diapers they really wanted to keep them because they are so cute. I gave the girls the opportunity to choose whether or not to keep the diapers they made or to donate to a family going through a hard time, to ease their burden in a small way. They gave it some thought and all of them decided that they wanted to donate their diapers, and keep the soft leftover scraps of flannel instead. I thought it was very sweet. Thanks for the idea, this was a really cool project to be a part of!" ~Jana Q., Activity Days leader

For Love of Sue

"I was able to make a delivery of diapers in memory of a special little baby, who has influenced grieving parents all over the world! Here’s the story:

When I was a teenager I read the Christmas Box Trilogy by Richard Paul Evans. I thought they were some nice little stories, but didn't think much more about them until this last year. In July 2012, we lost our little daughter to a cord accident at 21 weeks gestation, and she was stillborn. In my grief I looked for books about child loss, and I read the Christmas Box books again. This time the story of Mary losing her daughter in a house fire, and the way she dealt with her loss meant much more to me. I then read The Miracle of the Christmas Box, and understood why it spoke to my heart so deeply. In this book Richard Paul Evans tells about feeling inspired to write a story for his daughters, that eventually became a bestseller. As the book was coming together, Mr. Evans felt that he was being influenced by his little sister Sue, who was born still in the 1960’s. He felt that the story was about his mother’s grief in losing Sue, which wasn't acknowledged at the time. I love this section since it shows that our babies can influence us from the other side, as well as the importance of honoring ALL babies gone too soon:

“...I understood, for the first time that my story was about the pain my mother felt in losing a child. At this moment something peculiar happened. I suddenly felt that I was not alone in the room. Moreover, I believed that I knew who was with me: my little sister Sue, who had died when I was still a toddler.

Sue's death was not something our family spoke openly about. She was stillborn, and at the time, American culture did not openly acknowledge the hurt of such losses. My mother was sent home from the hospital with a rose and the consolation that she could always have another baby. For months after her loss, friends and church members avoided her, unsure of what to say. My father, following the counsel of others, urged her to just get on with her life.

As a child I remember only a few instances of my mother speaking of Sue. Once, when I was around five, I found my mother alone in a room crying. Frightened, I asked her what was wrong.

“It's Sue's birthday,” she said.

I believe that at that moment, at 4 A.M. In our small kitchen on Preston Street, Sue and I were reunited. I said out loud, “Sue, you gave me this story for Mom.” As I spoke the words, it instantly came to my mind- “Dedicate this book to me.” Richard Paul Evans, The Christmas Box Miracle, pgs. 102-103

Little Sue sent nudges from heaven to her brother to write a book, which has been healing for many. Another way that Sue Evans has influenced my life, as well as countless other grieving parents, is the Christmas Box Angel Statue. A powerful part of The Christmas Box story is the main character weeping at her daughter’s grave, watched over by a statue of an angel. That part was based on a memory of an old woman in Salt Lake City, UT who heard a mother weeping at a statue of an angel when she was young. As parents read the book and went searching for the statue to mourn their lost children, it couldn't be found. When Richard Paul Evans heard of this, he went with his aged friend to see if they could find it. Here is more from the miracle book: 

“The angel was gone. As I thought of the grieving parents wandering the cemetery looking for it, I suddenly had the desire to rebuild the angel- to provide a place for them to grieve their little ones. When I told my mother of my desire, she began to cry. “Sue was never buried,” she said. “I have no place to go.” The Christmas Box Miracle, pg. 147 (shared with permission)

He did have a statue of an angel made, and it is called the Christmas Box Angel Statue. It is dedicated to all parents who have lost a child, and there is a ceremony for angel parents at the statue every December 6th. While the first one is in the Salt Lake City Cemetery, there are now more than 100 statues dedicated or in the works, for different areas around the world! When I looked up the locations online, I was excited to see that there is one in my own small town of Vernal, UT! I've been to the angel statue often, and it has been very healing to visit, and leave a white flower. We also sent balloons to my daughter Cassidy from there on her due date last November, and without the statue we wouldn't have any place to go either.

Now that you have all of that background information-- Here is the diaper delivery part: When I realized that The Christmas Box was dedicated to Mr. Evans’ little stillborn sister, and all the good that has come from it, I had the crazy idea of writing to him to see if I could make some diapers in memory of Sue. Surprisingly, I got a little message from the actual author agreeing to the idea, so here they are! These diapers went to my home town hospital in Cedar City, UT, in loving memory of Sue Evans. I also sent along some of my first little gowns, in memory of my daughter Cassidy Jane. It's not a huge donation number-wise, but each set of diapers can make a difference in a grieving parent's life, something our "Small Town Sewers" truly believe. One neat thing about the experience was that I got to deliver them in person, which is something I don’t usually get to do.

Thank you Mr. Richard Paul Evans, for letting me make a donation in memory of your sister, and for all that you've done for parents of angels!"  Carrie, Small Angel Babies, Small Town Support

For Love of Blake and Shane Part #14

We are honored to serve the families supported by National SHARE Infant Loss & Support!  Find out more about SHARE on their website and don't forget to "like" them on Facebook!

Angel mama Holly M. donates again in memory of her little boys, Blake and Shane.  Holly made a donation of 220 diapers for the families served by SHARE of New Brunswick, New Jersey.

Angelitos Part #15 - #19

Angel mother Laura continues to share her love with bereaved families in memory of her 6 angel babies.  To read more about Laura's story, please click here.

Laura recently made donations for families of McAllen Medical Center in McAllen, Texas;  Knapp Medical Center in Weslaco, Texas; Methodist Hospital in Gary, Indiana; Methodist Hospital in Merrillville, Indiana; and Texas Presbyterian Hospital in Allen, Texas.

For Love of Tessa Part #15

Angel mama Debra provides a collection of diapers for the families served by the Tampa General Hospital NICU in Tampa, Florida.  For love of Tessa.  You can read more about Tessa by clicking here.

For Love of Joshua Part #7 and #8

In 2009 shortly after having my 5th child I decided to volunteer at a Crisis pregnancy center in Saraland Al. I worked going through donations and setting up a baby room for mother to buy things for their babies with points they get from going through a parenting class. These baby's are unplanned, but they are very much loved and wanted. These mothers have chosen life for their babies. 

Sadly, sometimes even when they have done everything right the unthinkable happens and their babies don't make it. There are times when the only place these women have to turn to is the Women's Resource Centers of Alabama. There are 2 locations close to me. One in Saraland Al and one in Mobile Al. They have both received 6 sets each. In memory of Joshua Henson Greer. ~Crystal, angel mother to Joshua

To read more about Joshua, click here.

Spokane East Stake Youth Conference

The young men and young women from the Spokane East Stake Youth Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints made Teeny Tears diapers for their service project!

"This was a very special day for me, as Teeny Tears is very close to my heart. My sister, Megan, is the founder of Teeny Tears, and started it after the birth of my sweet nephews. When Gloria Linerud approached me about doing Teeny Tears for their Youth Conference service project I was very excited. Gloria and her husband, Denny, were incredible and headed up this project with lots of love and enthusiasm for the families that these tiny diapers would bless.

The youth first listened to the Lineruds tell them about their humanitarian mission to Romania, and of the importance of service in our lives, to bless all of God's children. Then they explained to them the need for these little diapers even here in our own country, and then read the touching story of why Teeny Tears was started, in Megan's own words. The youth were deeply touched and anxious to help. 

They traced and cut out little diaper patterns with sweet reverence and love for the families that would receive them. I felt very blessed to be there that day with the Lineruds, and with the wonderful youth of our Stake, as we worked together to serve these precious angel babies and their dear families." ~Heather Beauchamp, auntie to angel baby Dex Bradshaw 

(Gloria and Denny)

52 diapers were donated to Sacred Heart Medical Center in Spokane, Washington. (That's Dex's Aunt Heather on the left with Carolyn, the bereavement coordinator of Sacred Heart on the right!)
50 diapers were donated to Relief Share of Missouri in memory of Alyssa Ashleigh Erickson.

Thank you, Spokane East Stake Youth Conference!!

For Love of Natalia Part #5 and Teeny Tears in all 50 States!!

I finished the batch of teeny diapers that will go to the 1st hospital in Minnesota to be adopted! Teeny Tears diapers are now going to every state in the union…first the U.S. next the WORLD…boowahahaha…but I digress…I made 16 sets of small and 8 sets of large sweet teeny diapers…well, I made a few more sets to put to one side for the next hospital in need…these will be mailed out to Sanford Bemidji Medical Center!  ~Elaine, angel mama to Natalia

To read more about Natalia, please click here.

With this delivery, we at Teeny Tears are pleased to announce that we are now serving families in all fifty of the United States!!!!!

THANK YOU to our busy volunteers and supporters! And THANK YOU to the facilities that have welcomed our teeny little treasures with open arms.