For Love of Melissa

The Babcock family made a donation of diapers to the Teeny Tears headquarters.  This is their story.  

"My name is Michelle Babcock.  My husband Brian and I have 5 children: Ashley (& Jared), Carter, Emily (Melissa's twin sister), Melissa, and Jake.  I found your organization last year as I was browsing the internet looking for a way to help other parents/families who have lost little babies.  I was immediately touchd by the efforts for so many who have donated tiny little diapers to your special organization and wanted to help do something.  

I am sending you these 125 diaper sets (250 diapers) to donate to a hospital that is in need.  It doesn't matter where you send them or which hospital you donate them to... whatever you feel is needed.  My hope is that these tiny diapers will help the families that receive them feel comfort in some small way; and that they know there are those who are thinking of them.  My heart is tender when I think of these families hurting and missing their little ones.  This hits close to home...

A little over 19 years ago -- 1994 -- twin girls were born to our family, Emily and Melissa.  Our daughter Melissa was born with a Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia.  After a day and a half, our little angel Melissa passed away in our arms.  Then the nurse/hospital brought our little angel Melissa to us, she was dressed in tiny jammies and wrapped in a special blanket.  Our family treasures the handmade quilt, her jammies, hand and foot prints, lock of hair, and a mold of Melissa's hand that were given to us after her passing.  Every year around the anniversary of Melissa's passing (or Christmas time), our family likes to donate a blanket, jammies, etc. to Primary Children's Medical Center in Salt Lake City, Utah to share with someone in the unit that our Melissa was in.  Our hope is that this will in some way bring some comfort and love into their lives.  

When I came across your organization last year, I felt strongly that I need to help.  I had friends and family help me with this diaper donation along the way.  Some of the young women and young women advisers in my ward helped me cut the diapers out of the fabric.  I sewed the diapers; and along with my family, we pinned the diapers together and put the ribbon and card on each diaper set.  

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for letting me help Teeny Tears.  It has been a blessing in my life over the past few months.  I'm already at work on my next donation project for your group."  ~Michelle, angel mother to Melissa

The diapers that the Babcock donated to the Teeny Tears headquarters were donated for families served by the following hospitals in Colorado:

Evan's Army Community Hospital
Memorial Hospital Central
Memorial Hospital North.

For Love of Adelaide Part #2

"As a Christmas present to our angel Adelaide, family members near and far put together a donation of Angel Outfitters Buntings, No-Sew Hats, and Teeny Tears Diapers for the hospital that performed the laser ablation surgery to try to save her and her twin sister from the devastating effects of twin to twin transfusion syndrome."

Baby Adelaide did not survive TTTS, but her twin sister lives on.  To read more about their story, please click here.

The doctors and nurses at UCSF were amazingly competent and compassionate during one of the scariest times of our lives. We are so grateful for all they did to try to save both of our girls and feel we owe our survivor's life to them. We wanted to make sure they had some bereavement clothing for families like ours, and we are so grateful that they accepted them.
My sister Laurel (in Nevada) introduced us to the projects and suggested the idea of a combined donation, all of us working together to supply a hospital in memory of Adelaide. 

I loved the idea and feel so grateful for her support and thoughtfulness. Mom (in Utah) sewed several pairs of diapers. My sister Vanisha (also in Utah) sewed blankets and included a small square of the same fabric (sewn like the blankets) for a keepsake, which I thought was a lovely idea. My sister Bethany (in Virginia) sewed a couple pairs of diapers and several buntings.  My husband and I were able to contribute a few buntings and a bunch of hats :) Our children enjoyed helping by turning up the brims of the hats and putting pairs of hats in baggies with the diapers.

Our families donated 10 blankets with keepsake squares, 20 buntings, 20 pairs of diapers, and 40 pairs of hats. I loved that this donation was gathered from across the United States for the families served by UCSF Benioff Children's Hospital in San Francisco, CA. It was so nice to work on this donation together in memory of our Adelaide, granddaughter, niece, sister, and daughter."  ~Keira and Israel, angel parents to Adelaide.

For Love of Jenna Mae

"Hello everyone! My name is Jennifer Ball. This is my first donation of diapers. I was able to donate to my local hospital, Delta Community Medical Center. I donated 8 sets of diapers in memory of my daughter Jenna Mae Ball. My 4 year old daughter was able to help me fold the diapers. It was fun to share this experience with her in a little way. 
I feel so blessed to find out about this organization. My cousin told me about this organization after the loss of her angel. I did not know anything like this existed. I was not offered anything for my angel. I was really struggling with the loss of my angel. Making diapers has been a beautiful, helpful healing step in my life. My baby was never offered anything. So I am so excited to help other families have beautiful clothing and know others care.

My Story:

My husband and I were so blessed to welcome a beautiful, healthy daughter into the world. When my daughter Kemry was 2 years old, we decided to have another baby. I figured it would take a while to get pregnant. I was pregnant right away. I was so shocked and excited. At 11 weeks I had a miscarriage. I never imagined this outcome. We tried again 2 more times with the same result. I decided to give up on children. It was too emotional. 

After my third miscarriage I found out I was pregnant again. My doctor had set up an appointment with a specialist. At 5 ½ weeks pregnant I started to bleed. My doctor sent me to get an ultrasound. I was so ready to hear the same news I had heard the last 3 times. We were in complete shock when the ultrasound tech said everything looks great. You are having twins and both heartbeats are strong. I was put on bed rest for a few weeks until the bleeding stopped. Everything continued great with the pregnancy. At 14 weeks we found out we were having a boy and girl. The babies were doing great and we were past the miscarriage stage! Now it was time to prepare for two babies. 

At 20 weeks we went in for our big ultrasound. During the ultrasound the tech stopped and left the room. She had not been able to find the heartbeat of our little girl. We were taken to doctor’s office to be informed that we had lost our little girl. I carried my angel for 15 weeks more. Our little boy was healthy and doing great but was watched very closely. It was an emotional and special time. I was able to feel my angel’s presence. I had time to deal with emotion. 15 weeks of planning the few moments of meeting my angel did not turn out how I had plan. My doctor and I had a plan. He had a photographer lined up, someone to make molds of my angel’s hands and feet, and the nurses at the hospital were informed and ready to help me deal with our loss. 

At 35 weeks my water broke and I was rushed to a larger hospital. I was faced with new doctors, new hospital, and no one knowing my circumstance. I delivered both babies on May 15, 2012. My son was rushed off to the NICU. After my c-section the nurses started to wheel me out of the room. I had to insist on seeing my baby girl. They brought me Jenna Mae in a metal bowl. She had been thrown in the bowl with the placenta and everything else. I was in such shock with the early delivery, being rush to another hospital, and my son being rushed to the NICU, I didn’t know what to do. I took a few pictures and they took my baby girl. I requested hand or feet prints or molds. The nurse took her away to try but I was later told they did not get anything. She was very fragile because she had stay inside of me for 15 weeks after her passing. 

I never saw my little girl again. I was not even able to hold her. The nurses signed a card with a bracelet that said “Sorry for your loss.” One nurse handed me the card and bracelet and walked out of my room. I was not asked if I wanted to hold my baby. A few minutes later a social worker came to my room and handed me a packet about loss and a packet about the NICU. She asked how I was doing. I told her I was okay. She then asked if I need advice on my son in the NICU. I was then told, “Well, you seem okay. So if you need anything, here is my extension number.” Everyone was so busy and focused on my son that it did not matter that I had lost another child. 

I am grateful for the concern and care of my son. Because he was watched so closely, the nurses saved my son’s life. He left the NICU after 2 weeks. I am beyond grateful for his care. I am now dealing with the loss of my angel. I am so blessed to have a healthy son and daughter and am expecting a baby girl in June. Making diapers has helped me deal with loss of my baby girl and deal with the emotion in this pregnancy. I don’t want others to have an experience similar to mine. I want other families experiencing loss to know others care. I feel like making angel clothing is a small way to let families know I care about their child. I hope sharing my story will help hospitals learn how to deal with the loss of a twin.

Diapers by Diana

Volunteer seamstress Diana made a donation of 15 sets of Teeny Tears diapers for families served by theSpartanburg Regional Medical Center NICU.  Thank you, Diana!

Atti's Lilies Part #2

Tanya, the angel mama behind Atti's Lilies, made a second donation of Teeny Tears diapers in memory of Atticus, C.E., and Riot Rubiss.  These diapers were donated to North Colorado Medical Center (The Hugs Program and Loops of Love).
Atti's Lilies specializes in providing tiny little remembrance hats for bereaved parents.
"Atticus was born on Easter Sunday of 2011 and passed from SIDS in November 2011. I was lucky to receive some items from the hospital when he passed, but I have learned that many bereaved parents have not. This page is for creating knitted caps in remembrance for your angel baby, whether you lost them to miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss."~ Tanya, Atti's Lilies
Thank you, Tanya, for all that you do for angel families everywhere.

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